All for One or One for All

Do you rather let everyone suffer because of you, or you suffer for everyone?


This is a situation I'm currently in. I'm stuck between this two questions and they are so annoying. If I choose the first option, people will think that I'm an idiot making them suffer because of me. They will never understand my feelings. Sometimes, its hard to decide when I'm in this kind of situation. Tried once, and I have lots of problems to deal with. I can't stand the heat anymore and feel like walking out of that door and then .. slam it.

How about the second one? I've tried before to be in that situation. Its really heavy, can't even barely walk with that kind of responsibility. Ya, its human natural behaviour to let people know that you had just suffer for them, bare their responsibility and do part of their parts of their part of the job given. To tell the truth, I have never complain this in front of them. They think that I'm just their pet to fetch the stick.

Sometimes, even with people like them, some other people will tend to say that they are so friendly and they are the one who gets the credits. They put up all the shows, getting camera flashes, putting up a smile and at the end, I'm the one who will be left out.

Fairy tales? Stories? I used to believe them but as I face these kind of problems, I starts to believe that all the fairy tales are fake. They were scripted before the scene was played, just like how people treat me, all scripted. After all the jobs, everything is done, I'll be ignored, dumped and feel like being used and dumped, like recycling myself.

Lets just say I try to ignore them, they'll be the one who will be in the right and I'm be in the wrong. In people's eye, I'll be the one who will be getting BLAME BLAME BLAME and I'm sick of it. They have the fun time, I have the hard time. What the heck is this?

Part 2 : Do you?

First, let me show u something.

Then The Part 2 of Do You?

1. Do you know that :

people that pretend to be other people are called bastard?
people that pretend to be other people will make their mom die early?
people that pretend to be other people is known as bitch?
people that pretend to be other people have no authority to have a name?
people using anonymous name is a coward because they have no parents to teach them?

Dear anonymous,
Even if we don't know what is your real identity, but we do know something.

1st - you're one bastard child
2nd - you mom's a whore
3rd - you dont even have the right to speak for yourself
4th - you're nothing in this society
5th - even if you're clever, score As in exams , you're still a mother fucking bitch.

Enjoy reading it, cause you're gonna get the side effect.

Tagged

LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : Kee Chia Ming @ Xyle
Birth Date : 28th September 1990
Current Status : Single
Eye Colour : Dark Brown
Righty or lefty : Righty

LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage : Hainan
My Fears : Psycho-pets
My Weaknesses : Spider n worms
My Perfect Pizza : Hawaiian Chicken Pizza?

LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : "Oh, still belum finish assignments"
My bedtime : 3 am
My most missed memory : all my friends in sfi.. especially nicky,lemmy,Weikeong,Andrew,Phillip ~

LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke : Both
McDonald or Burger King : McDonald (Need the Happy Meal)
Single or grouped dates : Single
Adidas or Nike : Can I pick Bodyglove?
Tea or Nestea : Tea, not BOH but LIPTON
Chocolate or Vanilla : ChocoVanil ( Mixed flavour is the best )
Cappuccino or Coffee : I tot cappuccino is one of the coffee? - For this I'll go with Espresso

LAYER 5 : DO YOU...
Smoke : No
Curse : Duh!?
Take a shower : Go ask your mom this question la..
Have a crush : Yeap , one of my classmate.. but she doesn't realize that..
Think you've been in love : Do you need me to repeat myself??
Go to school : I went to school, currently in college
Want to get married : Who doesn't. Unless those gay, cause tak leh same sex marriage mah.
Believe in yourself : Sometimes this is the main factor that destroy me during exam.

LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Alcohol : Shandy kira tak?
Gone to the mall : I'm not orang sakai la.
Been on stage : Yea.. lotsa time
Eaten sushi : Yay~ Sushi KING!
Dyed your hair : I got lotsa white hair, but I never dye my hair..

LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game : Nope
Changed who you were to fit in : Never

LAYER 8 : AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To be married : 26 will be perfect.. stable career and with at least RM20K

LAYER 9 : IN A GIRL...
Best eye colour : Red
Best hair colour : Dark Red-Black ( Hungarian's type )
Short hair or long hair : Not too long, not too short
Best height : Same as me
Attitude : Having the same feeling as I do

LAYER10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A minute ago : to be exact , 59sec ago, i was changing music , 60sec was on this survey
Hour ago : Writing dumb stuff about anonymous bustart
4.5 hours ago : IT class..
1 month ago : Curious about assignments
Year ago : You go ask your mom this question la.

LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : Anything except that fucking anonymous bustart
I feel : like going to bathe now..
I hate : that fuking anonymous bustart
I hide : my underwear underneath my pants
I miss : Phillip and Andrew
I need : to get that fucking anonymous

LAYER 12 : TAGGING 5 PEOPLE
Anyone la

Do you?

Do you know that :

We spend 1/4 of our life sleeping.
We spend 1/4 of our life working.
We spend 1/4 of our life waiting for the traffic light to change.
We spend 1/4 of our life cursing and scolding people.
79.99% of the Americans were actually red indians

Do you realize that :

We actually smile or laugh at least 10 times a day?
The dirtiest moment of the day is when the time you rise from your bed?
We cried at least 100 times in our life?
We actually breathe 20million times a day? *not confirmed*
We actually walk at least 20km a day? * except handicap people*

GTB - Green To Black

So whats up guys. How's the black theme. I think I prefer to be in darkness. My favourite colour change from yellow to black which means I'm evil now .. LOL. Enjoy~

EmO

When things went wrong , we don't blame people for what you've done yourself. My so-called "friends" here in college is a little too ''lazy'' and a little too ''...'' , ( ... = put anything you want ).
They rather go shopping and buy clothes than to do their assignments. Our assignment dateline is on week 11 and we are now in week 7 going 8. They are still ''terhegeh-hegeh'' if u know what i mean la.. and just dump their assignment aside and go shopping buying clothes.

One of the worst thing happened is there is this boy, and I'll repeat this BOY who skipped IT class and went to midvalley to buy clothes ( omg, boy also cannot resist the power of the clothes ). How pathetic! He would just do last minute work ( like what he have done for his Malaysian Studies assignment ) , and I regretted that he's again the same group as me for Business assignment.

I feel uneasy around them now and feel like wanna start to be '' wanna-be emo mode ''. As a ''so-called friends'' , I have already advice them to do their assignments and they're just delaying the works. Sometimes I'm just sick and tired! I wanna my Malacca Buddies ( u know who are they, which is YOU! ) to come INTI college!

Lastly, Mak CIK Fat-LIP Clarkson , stop being Mah-raya Carry! HAHA~

SF-Inti College

First of all , I would like to apologize for not updating my blog for almost a month.. or just a few week. I've been trying my best to update my blog, but when there's time for me to rest, I'll use it up for sleeping. Since my class is on 12noon today, maybe I'll talk a lil bit about my lecturers ( copy from Phillip , hehe )

Ok, lets start from the most basic subject which is Mathematics. This guy named William Shak is one of the worst-funny-unstable mood-crazy-dangerous guy. Practically , he don't know how to teach Maths. He'll just give us his handout and then ask us to study the methods and give exercises. When he explain a mathematic problem, he'll just say " This is this and this is this / This is here and from there is this, understand?". And I'm surprised when he say "Its none of my business if you don't understand, I'll only explain once and thats it". I'll say that I'm giving him the worst lecturer award among the lecturer that teaches me this semester.

Next up is my General Studies lecturer , Mr Yeap Hooi Chong, which I'm having his class at 12 today , is a ultra-funny wannabe , 60years old grandpapa . He told us he's married to an Indian lady and loves Indian food so much until he can't stop eating them. He always use the term " Children and Chao-Gi-Na". Although General Studies is a lil bit boring, but I never find that its boring at all. He's one of the best lecturer. 4 Stars given.

English is the most BORING subject EVER in this sem because of the lecturer , Robert Ng Yak Teng. He forced me to be the class rep ( I'm sick of it ). He always jokes around but no one ever laugh at his jokes. During his lesson, almost everyone will yawn and started to sleep after around 45minutes listening to his crap speech about his life and moral value and what shit and dangling stuff. 0.5 Star.

Business Studies 1 is one subject that needs me to memorize every single word and definition of the subject which makes me wanna die. Ms Kamaleswari is an Indian lady which guides us through this subject. Its not really boring because we'll have debates and group discussion about certain topics. She's one of the lecturer that actually know my name.

Malaysian Studies which is one of the hardest subject for me. Basically Malaysian Studies is a LAN subject or MPW ( Mata Pelajaran Wajib ) or for you to understand, I'll use the term " SEJARAH" which is a subject that requires u to talk about the flow of the history. Currently having headache on the assignment.

Information Technology Principle 1 is my favourite subject .. because I'm majoring in IT. Sorry, I forget the lecturer's name because we changed lecturer. She's a malay lady. She's a little 'fat' but she's friendly. She remembered my name. Haha. I joke around with her. For her assignment, I'm currently doing research on Bluetooth technology.


Basically that's about my lecturer. Sorry gotta go prepare for class.~

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