Anything and Everything
By: Kee Chia Ming
Hold on to yourself,
Never for once you think that you're alone,
This world is big,
Anything could happen to you.
Just when you think of giving up,
Held your head up high,
Look into the sky and at the very same moment,
Someone will be doing the same, just to tell you that know you're never alone,
Just like the sky, we are all connected to each other,
No matter how far apart we are.
Surprisingly when one day you think again,
On why you never gave up,
You passed this message the young,
And tell them to hold on tight,
Because the road isn't as smooth as it seems
And sometimes we would fall and never stand again.
You go on telling them:
Just when you think of giving up,
Held your head up high,
Look into the sky and At the very same moment
someone will be doing the same, just to tell you that know you're never alone,
Just like the sky, we are all connected to each other,
No matter how far apart we are.
And one day you'll come to your senses,
That what you've always believed in,
Has been everything to you.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Who
Who
By: Kee Chia Ming
I'm lonely as always,
On the highway; I walked alone since 9,
Never once I felt the love,
To only realize the cruelty of this world,
Sometimes I just feel like giving up,
But something is holding me back,
Sometimes I feel like I'm not brave enough,
To face the challenges in front of me,
Who can hug and embrace me,
Let me feel the love I always needed,
Who can tell me what to do,
Let me feel that someone cares about me.
Who can let me know,
That I am not alone anymore,
Who can reach out a hand,
To make me stand up again?
As time goes by,
It has come to my senses,
That I merely even try my best,
But given up before it has even begin,
Those people who looked at me,
Thinks that I'm just another failure,
Thinking that I'd not stand up again,
And I was just playing along with them.
Who can hug and embrace me,
Let me feel the love I always needed,
Who can tell me what to do,
Let me feel that someone cares about me.
Who can let me know,
That I am not alone anymore,
Who can reach out a hand,
To make me stand up again?
I need put a stop to all the nonsense,
That I've been telling myself,
I need to find for the one..
Whom can hug and embrace me,
Let me feel the love I always needed,
Whom can tell me what to do,
Let me feel that someone cares about me.
Whom can let me know,
That I am not alone anymore,
Whom can reach out a hand,
To make me stand up again.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Grudge
Holding grudge against someone is tiring, but everyone I've talked to ask me to forgive and forget. I tried, I gave it my best shot but something kept on bugging me every time I tried to do so. Maybe it's because of one sentence from the past, and it causes permanent damage to my heart. I'm not afraid because I know that some people out there still cares about me, and I'm important in someway, but what I'm afraid is about the dark side of each and everyone out there, they might be using me, or toying me around. Some people say I'm overreacting over small stuff but they are the one who does not really understand me, and they started judging me.
I might look okay , calm and crazy at times, but they doesn't know those rough roads I'm taking, because I don't want drag people around me into my moody-emo mood. Hiding emotions is perhaps my best ability. I know some people like to poke fun about me, even behind my back and in front of me. I can show that I don't even care but deep inside of me, it started bleeding non-stop, crying and begging them to stop.
I did however secretly cry when I'm alone and when no one is around. I don't want to make people feel like I'm some weakling and it is too much for me to take it. I don't wanna let people notice that my world is shattering into pieces. I know it wouldn't hurt so much as time passes.
When I wake up in the morning, what done is done.. I need to carry on with my life and I kept on telling myself not to look at the past.. and not to look at what's gonna happen.. but to concentrate on the present and do whatever it takes to be the best in hiding my fragile side from this cruel world.
I might look okay , calm and crazy at times, but they doesn't know those rough roads I'm taking, because I don't want drag people around me into my moody-emo mood. Hiding emotions is perhaps my best ability. I know some people like to poke fun about me, even behind my back and in front of me. I can show that I don't even care but deep inside of me, it started bleeding non-stop, crying and begging them to stop.
I did however secretly cry when I'm alone and when no one is around. I don't want to make people feel like I'm some weakling and it is too much for me to take it. I don't wanna let people notice that my world is shattering into pieces. I know it wouldn't hurt so much as time passes.
When I wake up in the morning, what done is done.. I need to carry on with my life and I kept on telling myself not to look at the past.. and not to look at what's gonna happen.. but to concentrate on the present and do whatever it takes to be the best in hiding my fragile side from this cruel world.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Fantasia - Even Angels
A very touching voice + lyrics. Good one Tasia!
Download Link : [MP3] http://www.mediafire.com/?rcjyywjtmde
Download Link : [MP3] http://www.mediafire.com/?rcjyywjtmde
Even Angels by Fantasia Barrino
I'm driving in circles, shoulda bought that new phone
I cant find my way to, all the places I call home
I'm (on my own)
I'm at the station pumping gas, yeah I'm taking out the trash
I'm (all alone)
And who's there? Who's there?
Hook:
Since you been gone, I learned how to move on
How to be myself, I don't need nobody so
I'm doing so good, I forgot that I could
Live like this, woohh~
Chorus:
First step, take a deep breath
You don't need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn to fly
Verse 2:
Coming home and its late night, shoulda left the lights on
I cant help but imagine, all the things that could go wrong
I'm (on my own)
I'm in the kitchen on the chair, reaching for the top shelf
I'm (all alone)
And I'm okay, I'm alright
Hook:
Since you been gone, I learned how to move on
How to be myself, I don't need nobody so
I'm doing so good, I forgot that I could
Live like this, woohh~
Chorus:
First step, take a deep breath
You don't need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn to fly
Bridge:
Everyday I'm stronger, cant get better, if it, if it dont hurt
Why? Oh Why? Oh Why?
See me in my next life
Cause heartbreaks a teacher, and Ill love, Ill love a little bit deeper
Why? Oh Why? Oh Why!
Yeah
Chorus:
First step, take a deep breath
You don't need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn to fly~
Fly~ Fly~ Fly~
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn how to fly
I'm driving in circles, shoulda bought that new phone
I cant find my way to, all the places I call home
I'm (on my own)
I'm at the station pumping gas, yeah I'm taking out the trash
I'm (all alone)
And who's there? Who's there?
Hook:
Since you been gone, I learned how to move on
How to be myself, I don't need nobody so
I'm doing so good, I forgot that I could
Live like this, woohh~
Chorus:
First step, take a deep breath
You don't need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn to fly
Verse 2:
Coming home and its late night, shoulda left the lights on
I cant help but imagine, all the things that could go wrong
I'm (on my own)
I'm in the kitchen on the chair, reaching for the top shelf
I'm (all alone)
And I'm okay, I'm alright
Hook:
Since you been gone, I learned how to move on
How to be myself, I don't need nobody so
I'm doing so good, I forgot that I could
Live like this, woohh~
Chorus:
First step, take a deep breath
You don't need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn to fly
Bridge:
Everyday I'm stronger, cant get better, if it, if it dont hurt
Why? Oh Why? Oh Why?
See me in my next life
Cause heartbreaks a teacher, and Ill love, Ill love a little bit deeper
Why? Oh Why? Oh Why!
Yeah
Chorus:
First step, take a deep breath
You don't need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn to fly~
Fly~ Fly~ Fly~
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn how to fly
Monday, May 3, 2010
Children : The Past and The Present
Remember when you're younger, you tend to get presents from your parents. Yes, there is no doubt that every one loves getting presents from anyone. The most interesting part of this process is when you get what you have always wanted. In my case, presents are always a kind of token of expression from my parents. They gave me and my siblings as a symbol of encouraging us. Our presents are not pricey though, it might be toys or something small.
When I was small, I remember I have always wanted a "Gameboy". My dad promised me that if I have a moderate results for my UPSR, he will get me one. Indeed, I did quite well and got the presents. I learned a lesson from him when I was thinking back; which is "Never lie to a child". I can imagine what I will do if I did not get the "Gameboy" that I was looking for.
Children nowadays are very condemned by their parents. They get what they want without any options. Parents nowadays are very : "afraid-to-lose" type (kia-su) . They always think on how to present themselves by giving what best to their children. Imagine, an Adidas watch, a Nike school bag and a pair of Nike school shoes. They are wearing half (or a quarter) of a thousand ringgit to school everyday. Can you imagine how these kids will grow up wanting more branded stuff? I went to school wearing a pair of Bata school shoes, Swan school bag and without a watch. Imagine the big differences.
What makes us better than the children of today's generation is our maturity. We are more capable of dealing with our own problems rather than calling for our parents' help. The problem is because the mothers would not give their children a chance to learn how to be independent. Go to SFI Primary School at 10 in the morning. You can see mothers lining up outside the fence just to see their son in school. For heaven sake, they are old enough to deal with their problems. Another case is their homework. Homework are supposed to be done on the children willingness. No doubt, no children like to do their homework but what made them do is the consequences of not doing them. The mothers nowadays send their children to after school classes and forces them to do their homework. Moreover, the tuition center are giving them extra work. Imagine how they are going to handle those workload. Pressuring your children is never a good way of teaching them. Human cannot perform well under pressure.
Let children be in charge of their lives. Parents like to decide what course they are going to take, forcing them to a path that they does not want to walk but forced to. Then, they will start doing nonsense in school, cannot perform well in their academics and starts giving up hope on themselves. Is it a selfish way of the parents to make their children? Parents never think of the sources of why their children are who they are now. They will only blame 2 things, the teachers and the school, but never themselves.
There is a lot more to learn in parenting. No one can be the perfect mother or father, but what they can do is to give their children the best in the value of morale and guiding them.
When I was small, I remember I have always wanted a "Gameboy". My dad promised me that if I have a moderate results for my UPSR, he will get me one. Indeed, I did quite well and got the presents. I learned a lesson from him when I was thinking back; which is "Never lie to a child". I can imagine what I will do if I did not get the "Gameboy" that I was looking for.
Children nowadays are very condemned by their parents. They get what they want without any options. Parents nowadays are very : "afraid-to-lose" type (kia-su) . They always think on how to present themselves by giving what best to their children. Imagine, an Adidas watch, a Nike school bag and a pair of Nike school shoes. They are wearing half (or a quarter) of a thousand ringgit to school everyday. Can you imagine how these kids will grow up wanting more branded stuff? I went to school wearing a pair of Bata school shoes, Swan school bag and without a watch. Imagine the big differences.
What makes us better than the children of today's generation is our maturity. We are more capable of dealing with our own problems rather than calling for our parents' help. The problem is because the mothers would not give their children a chance to learn how to be independent. Go to SFI Primary School at 10 in the morning. You can see mothers lining up outside the fence just to see their son in school. For heaven sake, they are old enough to deal with their problems. Another case is their homework. Homework are supposed to be done on the children willingness. No doubt, no children like to do their homework but what made them do is the consequences of not doing them. The mothers nowadays send their children to after school classes and forces them to do their homework. Moreover, the tuition center are giving them extra work. Imagine how they are going to handle those workload. Pressuring your children is never a good way of teaching them. Human cannot perform well under pressure.
Let children be in charge of their lives. Parents like to decide what course they are going to take, forcing them to a path that they does not want to walk but forced to. Then, they will start doing nonsense in school, cannot perform well in their academics and starts giving up hope on themselves. Is it a selfish way of the parents to make their children? Parents never think of the sources of why their children are who they are now. They will only blame 2 things, the teachers and the school, but never themselves.
There is a lot more to learn in parenting. No one can be the perfect mother or father, but what they can do is to give their children the best in the value of morale and guiding them.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Friends
Friends are always important. You might have a lot of friends, but there are some friends that you know that they're always backstabbing you. Good friends doesn't care about what you did, but best friends will always advice you, motivate you and cheer you up no matter what you did. I still remember what my lecturer told me; "People cannot differentiate friends from acquaintances". It literally means that not everyone that you know can be your friends but rather they are known as acquaintances.
I have friends which are caring, hardworking , cheerful. But this one special friend of mine, he shares his feelings with me, encourages me and we share some things in common. He has never been selfish to others. Although we have this gap in education, which he's better than me by a lot, he's never laughed nor looked down on me. Perhaps, his attitude has led me to who I am today. I can't thank him more than anything else.
Here's another friend of mine, we were together most of the time during our secondary school life. We talked, we laughed and of course we picked on teachers together too. We joked a lot about teachers, talked crap and even spend most of our time together. He's definitely a very good friend that I just can't say "Thank You" but to be there for him all the time whenever he needs me. He played a vital role in my life too.
Here's another friend of mine, we met in college. Although we seldom (or never) talk to each other during our early year in foundation, we immediately became close during our degree year. He's never shy to help others. Besides having good personalities, he's never selfish and always have the attitude to always ready to share and to make sacrifices. At times, I feel like I did not do anything to enhance our friendship but he's never complain or what-so-ever.
Friends.. is a big word. Without them, we cannot survive. That's why don't ever say you don't need friends.
I have friends which are caring, hardworking , cheerful. But this one special friend of mine, he shares his feelings with me, encourages me and we share some things in common. He has never been selfish to others. Although we have this gap in education, which he's better than me by a lot, he's never laughed nor looked down on me. Perhaps, his attitude has led me to who I am today. I can't thank him more than anything else.
Here's another friend of mine, we were together most of the time during our secondary school life. We talked, we laughed and of course we picked on teachers together too. We joked a lot about teachers, talked crap and even spend most of our time together. He's definitely a very good friend that I just can't say "Thank You" but to be there for him all the time whenever he needs me. He played a vital role in my life too.
Here's another friend of mine, we met in college. Although we seldom (or never) talk to each other during our early year in foundation, we immediately became close during our degree year. He's never shy to help others. Besides having good personalities, he's never selfish and always have the attitude to always ready to share and to make sacrifices. At times, I feel like I did not do anything to enhance our friendship but he's never complain or what-so-ever.
Friends.. is a big word. Without them, we cannot survive. That's why don't ever say you don't need friends.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
The Strength To Believe
No matter what we are doing, there is one thing that we need to remember: Believe.
Attempting something without believing in yourself means pushing yourself hardly which will be very stressful. When human are under stress, they tend to have their mindset towards the negative things or event, which will lead them to failure. Believing in yourself is the first step. From there, you'll be able to have a more positive thinking; and learning is definitely an essential steps in our life. Without learning and adapting ourselves to the environment, we could easily lose our way. Like what people say "Set the path/road that you're going to take". It means that we should focus on our vision and goals. Having goals will lead us towards success. Without setting the path, we could not see our future, but people that have could. When we are stuck at a point on the way to fulfill the goal, we could take alternative ways, but people that does not have, cannot do so.
Learning from our mistakes is always important. No matter who you are, there will always be a chance of you doing mistakes. Like programming, there is no way that we would not get errors. There is no perfect human being. People who cannot accept failure will one day have their "tower tumbling down" so hard that they cannot rebuild it. Expecting for the worst is always better to than expecting for the best, because once you have your ego, it can't be stopped and like what I wrote, you cannot rebuild them.
Everything is like destined. There is a chance for us to fail, and there is also a chance for us to succeed. It depends on how you want your future to be; and believing in yourself is the first step that must be taken.
Attempting something without believing in yourself means pushing yourself hardly which will be very stressful. When human are under stress, they tend to have their mindset towards the negative things or event, which will lead them to failure. Believing in yourself is the first step. From there, you'll be able to have a more positive thinking; and learning is definitely an essential steps in our life. Without learning and adapting ourselves to the environment, we could easily lose our way. Like what people say "Set the path/road that you're going to take". It means that we should focus on our vision and goals. Having goals will lead us towards success. Without setting the path, we could not see our future, but people that have could. When we are stuck at a point on the way to fulfill the goal, we could take alternative ways, but people that does not have, cannot do so.
Learning from our mistakes is always important. No matter who you are, there will always be a chance of you doing mistakes. Like programming, there is no way that we would not get errors. There is no perfect human being. People who cannot accept failure will one day have their "tower tumbling down" so hard that they cannot rebuild it. Expecting for the worst is always better to than expecting for the best, because once you have your ego, it can't be stopped and like what I wrote, you cannot rebuild them.
Everything is like destined. There is a chance for us to fail, and there is also a chance for us to succeed. It depends on how you want your future to be; and believing in yourself is the first step that must be taken.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Back to Blogging
Suddenly got the feeling of blogging. I know the mood of blogging will be gone soon but let me do a quick review of my life.
Jan 2010 : Excited about the new semester, the last semester for my year 1 degree. Time flies, I was in foundation one year ago and now its my last semester for my year 1 degree.Nothing much happened except CNY. This past CNY was the most memorable CNY ever. My relatives from both side, came to visit us. The most memorable thing happened was during the steamboat session in my house and Aunt Molly house. I love you Aunt Molly, thanks for the steamboat :). I still remember my first Java lab test. Omg, I was stunned and really thought I couldn't handle Java, but thanks to Steve for his guidance, I was able to do so.
Feb 2010 : February was the most relaxing month of my life for this semester. I didn't study much and was fooling around the whole time. I did complete part of my assignments like blogging and my HCI assignment. I also did something that no one know, except Steve.. not a bad thing but something that I normally wouldn't do.
March 2010 : This is perhaps the busiest month of my WHOLE life; I have 2 projects and 1 assignments, 3 presentation lining up in a week to do. Yes, I'd really admit that I didn't contribute as much as before, most of the work were done by Steve. I did however complete the 2 major project documentation. Something really shocking happened too, I got 97/100 for my HCI assignment, which I think no one else would normally get.
April 2010 : Examination season, but my exams were from 12 to 13 April, which is the shortest of all. We got back our project mark, 95/100 for our HCI project , the highest in class, and 84/100 for our Website design, which is also the highest (I think). Not to forget our HCI Test and HTML Test, both 50/50 (..lol) and 40/50 respectively. All in all, I got average of 50% for all my coursework, the highest.. 57% :P~ I'm so proud of myself this semester. I literally passed all my subjects without even sitting for my final exam. The exam were really TOUGH, I doubt I can score an A for my Java and HTML. Ah well, lets just wait for 29 April for my result.
Jan 2010 : Excited about the new semester, the last semester for my year 1 degree. Time flies, I was in foundation one year ago and now its my last semester for my year 1 degree.Nothing much happened except CNY. This past CNY was the most memorable CNY ever. My relatives from both side, came to visit us. The most memorable thing happened was during the steamboat session in my house and Aunt Molly house. I love you Aunt Molly, thanks for the steamboat :). I still remember my first Java lab test. Omg, I was stunned and really thought I couldn't handle Java, but thanks to Steve for his guidance, I was able to do so.
Feb 2010 : February was the most relaxing month of my life for this semester. I didn't study much and was fooling around the whole time. I did complete part of my assignments like blogging and my HCI assignment. I also did something that no one know, except Steve.. not a bad thing but something that I normally wouldn't do.
March 2010 : This is perhaps the busiest month of my WHOLE life; I have 2 projects and 1 assignments, 3 presentation lining up in a week to do. Yes, I'd really admit that I didn't contribute as much as before, most of the work were done by Steve. I did however complete the 2 major project documentation. Something really shocking happened too, I got 97/100 for my HCI assignment, which I think no one else would normally get.
April 2010 : Examination season, but my exams were from 12 to 13 April, which is the shortest of all. We got back our project mark, 95/100 for our HCI project , the highest in class, and 84/100 for our Website design, which is also the highest (I think). Not to forget our HCI Test and HTML Test, both 50/50 (..lol) and 40/50 respectively. All in all, I got average of 50% for all my coursework, the highest.. 57% :P~ I'm so proud of myself this semester. I literally passed all my subjects without even sitting for my final exam. The exam were really TOUGH, I doubt I can score an A for my Java and HTML. Ah well, lets just wait for 29 April for my result.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Quick Update
I'm currently very free but not till next week because I'll be having a Java Lab Test. Its the pain in the ass because she's going too fast, but I can still understand what she's teaching. Last week, my desktop broke down because of the Graphic card problem. It was giving me Blue Screen non-stop. I figured it must be the hardware problem but I didn't take the gfx out to check it until Friday. 3 Capacitors on the GFX exploded. No wonder I heard mini explosion few days back then.
Oh, I bought a new Motherboard.. (finally.. its working perfectly fine now!) and a new chassis for my desktop, CM Storm Scout (I'm loving it..) In fact, I think I'm very satisfied with my current CPU.
One more good news is I'll be having something new and big before new year.. well maybe and I hope it'll be! =) .
Oh, I bought a new Motherboard.. (finally.. its working perfectly fine now!) and a new chassis for my desktop, CM Storm Scout (I'm loving it..) In fact, I think I'm very satisfied with my current CPU.
One more good news is I'll be having something new and big before new year.. well maybe and I hope it'll be! =) .
