Futuristic

Futuristic.. which means something that is going on today which is suppose to happen in the future. Maybe I'm a little obsessed with my future, but who doesn't? Sometimes I'll just sit down alone thinking about my future. "What am I going to do?", "What's next?", "What's wrong with me?". These questions always haunt me day and night, sometimes even in my dream. Speaking about dream, it has been long since I had a good dream. People say I'm pessimistic, but what's so nice about being optimistic? I don't like to be optimistic because I don't wanna hope to get something I wouldn't get and hurt myself. I rather look down on myself and do the best I can. Sometimes, it isn't bad to be pessimistic, but being optimistic is good too.

Isn't it obvious that sometimes you need to be alone and you get bugged by some pest and they would say something bad about you like "Oh, why are you so upset today?" , "What is wrong with you?","What's with the sour face?" I often get this type of comment from people. I feel like saying "Leave me alone will you?", but I rather just keep quiet because I don't want to create misunderstanding. Some people will just take the words negatively.

Everything is moving in the fast lane and I feel like I'm moving in the slow lane.. creeping. Sometimes I wish I would go back to Primary school and fix those things I did wrongly. Hmm.. maybe I would give myself sometimes to get used to what I'm doing right now.

Oh ya, Happy Birthday Wei Keong. Have A Nice Day.

Signing off,
C.M.Kee